If I Die Tomorrow

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illneas
Published at : 01 Nov 2021
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This is a sad poem that is trying to make you feel better.

I’ve been working on this poem for quite some time because I was searching for the correct story to carry this feeling of "endings and beginnings". The final story that seemed appropriate was this of 2 people that can communicate without language and can understand each other on a deeper level. I hope you enjoy the softness of the final result and the intricacies of human nature that I humbly tried to capture and present.

P.S. This wouldn’t be possible without my friend and the stray cats that she pets.

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-The narrator is Melissa Varela
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LO.OSE - Fragile Feeling
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🔰If I Die Tomorrow by illness

If this was my last day with you
I would silently observe the reflection of this room in your eyes
Hoping to feel present for the first time

If this was my last day here
I would break the glass resting on my skin
That invisibly separates me from this world
And from you

If this was my last day with you
I wouldn’t tell you

I would talk to you about my half-finished poems
As if I had the courage to write again
Hoping someday you will finish them

While you might be searching for me
Between the lines
Or trying to forget me

If you notice my voice shaking
While talking to you
Try to ignore it

If you notice my eyes getting blurry
Find comfort in your sudden disappearance
And wait for gravity to reveal you again

If I die tomorrow
I would finally realize that the ambient pain
Is another proof that I’m still alive

You know

I know

The fragility of everything
The fragility of me

I know

You know

That as the sunset approaches
Every time you smile
I die a little bit

I’m sorry
I haven’t touched you enough
You see, I can only say "I love you"
In silence

You might be angry with me
For hiding it from you

But all I wanted
was another normal day with you

If I don’t die tomorrow
I will live as if I could

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